I’ve been thinking a lot about family lately, and how I would want to raise a daughter. Thinking about how I was raised, and how I was made to feel about my body, and how I never felt like I was slightly pretty, is something I will carry with me forever.
I don’t blame my family, its just the way they are, always joking and taking things way to far. Let me explain, you know those family get togethers? where its suppose to be fun, I’ve never had fun, I was always the target, getting told I’m fat, outrageously pale and I’m trying to be better than everyone else. Even at my parents house I never felt like I fit in, my Mom is the type of woman that will take you out for lunch, and sit their mocking other people, that’s just not who I am. I don’t see a reason to shame others, I never want to make other people feel bad about themselves, and who am I to judge. Till this day, I have to wear a jacket with every thing I wear, because of how I was made to feel about my arms. If you see a woman wearing a jacket during the hottest day, come say Hi, that’s probably me. I’m slowly trying to get myself to go out without a jacket, but I feel so naked and embarrassed, but I will conquer this. One day soon I will walk around without a jacket and feel like a normal person.
Over the years I’ve forgiven my family and made peace with the person in the mirror, because you know what I can’t change it and I sure as hell don’t want to! Everyone is beautiful in their own way, and having beauty that shines from the inside out is beauty that will last forever.
This is what I want to say to my future daughter: You are beautiful, because you are you, never let anything or anyone make you feel any differently. Beauty isn’t just about the way you look, its about kindness, and the way you are. Be kind, positive,never judge and forgive easily, but most importantly just be who you are and accept your flaws, because one day someone will come a long and make you feel like the most beautiful person in the world, and all your flaws will make you just the perfect person for them. Society and magazines tries to tell you what is beautiful, but you know what, who cares. If we were all the same the world would be an awfully boring place, so just be you kid.
Lets get to what I wore Wednesday, that took a little bit long, but lets look at outfits.
T shirt dress – Similar here
Pleather jacket – Similar here
Brown boots – Similar here
having inner beauty that shines out is beauty that will last forever